So, I’m a qualified counsellor. In the UK, where the term “counsellor” is not yet a protected title, it is considered that anyone who has a qualification at level 4 and above is suitably qualified to provide mental health therapy to those who need it. I’m at level 5 and am currently studying level 6 but I still don’t feel like a professional.
When will this “professional” feeling kick in? Is it because I’m still fairly new to this, despite studying for 4 years? Or is it autism and an internalised sense of ableism?
It’s hard to shake off the language of the DSM where I am considered to have deficits in everything from knowing how to appropriately respond to others, being able to communicate clearly, to behaving without being restricted by repetitive behaviours. But this is not all of who I am…
I have such deep empathy for others that I can literally “feel” their emotions. This both helps and hinders in therapy, many clients don’t want their therapist to fall apart before their eyes. I have to hold it together but by showing some emotion with clients it lets them know that they are understood, that I get it.
Also, my autistic experience has shown me what depression and anxiety truly feel like. I have existed in the abyss and found a way out. This has shown me that it’s possible and that there is always hope.
I don’t know who I am trying to convince I am worthy of being a therapist…
Actually I do.
Myself.
The Autistic Counsellor 